Why this blog?

I've given blogging a chance before on a personal family blog - and I have miserably failed to keep track of it and update it. I usually forget that I even HAVE a blog, which is sad and understandable (as I'm running after 2 small children) at the same time.

This time, however, is different. I began thinking, after an amazing service at church based on righteousness, that I spend all my time trying to EARN what has already been freely given - forgiveness of my sins and God's grace and mercy. Well, saying I was trying to earn this is a bit ridiculous - the most I would really do is get angry at myself after having a fit of anger or losing my patience or gossipping....well, you get the picture....and then pray for God to grant me the things that I lack. In this service, however, I had an epiphany, if you will. I realized how utterly foolish I've been. God has already granted my forgiveness and saved me through his son Jesus Christ - all He wants from me is a relationship. A true relationship, where I spend time with Him and learn from Him....and in turn, He will give me all I need.

That service also got me to thinking - what kind of wife and mother can I ever be if I am not putting the most important person - Jesus - first?  As Proverbs 31:10 states, "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." I want to be that woman. I want to be like David - a woman after God's own heart. Right now, in the rut I'm in, it's more like my price is right around that of a pile of dog poo. :-P To be deemed virtuous or gracious or kind or "insert positive adjective here," it must come from Christ as he lives through me. My focus MUST be on Him.

So, this is my way of doing all of this by way of a journal. I want to write down and record all of the things I learn through the study of my Bible daily (as I've only ever done this sporadically and without much understanding afterwards). I want to write down my prayers and praises daily and see the changes God makes. I want to record my struggles and be set free by laying it all at the cross. Most importantly, I hope my morning quiet time with build that relationship with God that will continue throughout all eternity.